Iris (Sequel to 'Hungry Eyes') K+ Fluff – By Kiki Posted 16/11/2007 03:03:44 PM

Ask and ye shall receive. This was inspired by the incredible 'Iris' by the Goo Goo Dolls. That song is amazing! *edit* Oopsies, forgot to add a video. Ok, here ya go. And I definitely did not make it. That lovely privilege belongs to anya1f. [Only admins are allowed to see this link]

A big thanks to everyone who read and encouraged me to continue. And, especially, to grandma who read over the beginning of this and gave her approval. Love ya!
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Body quivering with anticipation, Booth knocked on her door. Two days had passed. He hadn’t seen her but try as he might, he had been unable to forget their implied promise to discuss…them. He nervously shifted his weight as he waited. Presently, the door opened. Curious eyes met his and she gestured him inside wordlessly. He moved in quickly, knowing that if he stopped to think he wouldn’t go through with this. He heard the door shut behind him. Pulse rising, he turned to face her. Brennan’s eyebrows were raised, anticipating an explanation. The enormity of what he was about to do came crashing around him. Words failed. Time passed. He quickly decided that if he couldn’t speak, then he should at least act.

Suddenly, he was before her. He heard her gasp, razor sharp in the back of her throat. He was close, very close: intimately close. He imagined he could feel their breaths meeting, mingling, becoming one. She was absently running her tongue over and back through her barely parted teeth. A nervous gesture, the slight pain of which was keeping her grounded, in tune with the moment.

Despite her fidgeting, the rattling of each anxious breath, he couldn’t help but notice that her eyes were clear. Impossibly focused. It comforted him. Somewhere, deep inside of her, possibly in an unknown region of her subconscious, part of her was ready, eager for this talk.

This did little to ease the thunderous slamming of his heart, but somehow it calmed him. Enough that he was able to dart his eyes quickly from her eyes to her lips, trail his gaze down her neck...he promptly wrenched his eyes upward lest she got offended that he was eyeing her like a piece of meat. But, in an odd sense, how could he not? She was captivating. Regal. And, oh, so very delectable.

And I’d give up forever to touch you

She was biting the inside of her cheek now, almost as though she were afraid to show amusement. Did she know just how close he had come to burying his face in that voluptuous cleavage? Her twitching lips answered in the affirmative.

Sighing heavily, he closed his eyes briefly. When he snapped them open mere moments later, Brennan’s face was taut, her eyes frightened. She knew he was pitching himself ever closer to the inevitable. To the reason he had come here tonight. The reason he was finding it difficult to be around her…and impossible to stay out of her presence. And, she felt it too. She must. He knew, rooted inside of him, that she must. She had to. But, human nature being what it was, he also knew that if she vehemently denied it, he’d think himself mistaken.

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

He rolled his eyes, frustrated at his inability to start talking, to begin the whole process, for better or worse. He pursed his lips. Brennan’s gaze didn’t falter. Nervousness coursing through his entire system, he bounced on the balls of his feet, pressing his lips tightly together. Brennan laughed. No, she giggled. She let go off all restraint and giggled, chuckling deliriously at the normally in-control-of-everything agent being reduced to erratic body movements for want of anything better to do. The sound stilled his jerky actions. It also slowed his heart. The tinkling, reckless, spontaneous trill of her joy made everything so clear. His Bones: happy. That was it. That was everything.

You’re the closest to Heaven that I’ll ever be

Unwittingly, she had given him the courage to speak. If she was happy, that was all he ever wanted. How could he be sure she was always content, always satisfied? By staying with her. By being with her. Encouraged, ignoring the shaking of his voice and the slickness of his palms, he opened his mouth.

“Bones, I...we…this just has to stop.”

Her eyebrows drew together and her head tilted slightly, lips pursing as she considered him. She made no reply, forcing him, through her lack of response, to explain what he meant.

“I need to tell you how I feel. Finally, actually say the words. Stop dancing and hiding and pretending that I don’t want you…as more than a partner. As more than a friend. I’ve had so many wasted opportunities to say it to you, but no more. I want you…I need you to know. I couldn’t go another day without talking this through.”

And I don’t want to go home right now

Her hand had shot to her necklace as soon as he started speaking. Her lips were constantly assaulted by her teeth and her body shook with nerves. She glanced at the floor, shaking her head almost absently.

“Bones...please.”

He heard her gasp quietly. Eyes roving frantically, she tilted her head up. Finally, she latched her gaze onto his. The desperation and honesty she saw there frightened her. This was too real. Too much. She thought she could do this... This wasn’t meant to happen. They weren’t meant to happen. Things were just meant to continue as normal, for...for as long as they were partners.

His hand circling her wrist shook her from her excuses. She glanced down at his fingers. So strong, yet so gentle. He wouldn’t hurt her. He would do anything to protect her. He had told her this and demonstrated it enough times for her to believe it. All the empirical evidence was there. He relentlessly strove to make her happy, to keep her spirits up, to do what was best for her, even if she couldn’t see it at the time. Absently, she reached over with her free hand and ran her fingers over his knuckles. His eyes flew to her face; the intensity of them boring into her forced her to meet his glance. She was safe with him. Never breaking eye contact she nodded firmly, once, then twice. An incredulous tentative smile lit up his face and he took a step closer.

And all I can taste is this moment

She felt her spine grow rigid instinctually but she made herself ignore the ‘fight or flight’ chemicals coursing through her bloodstream. Barely breathing, she mirrored him and moved forward herself. The room suddenly became very warm, the air incredibly close. Tongue nervously shooting out to coat his lower lip with moisture, Booth shuffled slightly in her direction. Shoes touching, they regarded each other. She could feel his breath on her cheek, smell the aftershave he had gotten last Christmas. He took a deep shuddering breath, trying to slow his heart rate.

And all I can breathe is your life

“Bones...Temperance…I’ve tried to deny this, ignore it and convince myself that it will just fade away. But, I’ve since realised that it won’t. It never will. And, really, why would I want it to? All I’m doing by pretending I don’t want something...more with you is denying myself what could be the greatest happiness I’ll ever know.”

Cause sooner or later it’s over

She nodded. He was startled to see she was working very hard to hold back tears. She managed to croak something about how Angela said she missed out on some of the best experiences in life because she refused to open herself up to them. Tortured by the pain in her voice, he nodded.

“We...we only get one life, Bones. I don’t want to spend mine without you.”

I just don’t want to miss you tonight

The dam opened slightly and two solitary tears ran down her cheeks. He swallowed, hating to see her upset but knowing that it was a process she must go through if she was ever to overcome her fear of social intimacy.

“I...I love my independence, Booth. I never wanted anybody to take that away from me. But...but the truth is, I’ve come to want you...”

She sighed in frustration and tossed her head. Tried again.

“The truth is, I’ve come to need you...really need you. And my greatest fear has been that somebody would find out.”

And I don’t want the world to see me

He was afraid to speak. He knew how much it must have cost her to admit it. Bizarrely, she felt that depending on somebody else, however slightly, was a sign of weakness. But for her to say that she needed him… Needed him how? To protect her? To stay with her? To love her? He could do all of that. He knew others wouldn’t understand, or even be derogatory of, Brennan’s rationale...but he understood where she was coming from. How dangerous it was to give yourself up to someone. How much it cost if you were hurt.

Cause I don’t think that they’d understand

The lack of ridicule from him at her revelation encouraged her. He was comfortable with her self-reliance but he wasn’t crushed by her desire for him to stay and be with her. She laughed, very quietly, with relief.

“Booth, I know...statistically and rationally I know that most relationships end in failure. Sadness and despair are so widespread in the news, literature, and everyday discourse because they are so prevalent. I know, realistically, that a…romantic relationship with you would probably disintegrate in time…but for some inexplicable reason, I still...I still want to try.”

When everything’s made to be broken

He blinked. Only she could say she wanted to pursue a relationship while in the same breath pronouncing its inevitability to fail. He chuckled softly.

“So...we’re in agreement, then? We’re going to give us a try.”

He gestured a hand back and forth between their bodies. He tried to ignore the shaking of his fingers.

She nodded, offering him a smile.

“We’ve both said it’s what we want.”

I just want you to know who I am

Grinning broadly, he moved to place a hand on her waist. He saw her eyes widen. Her mind whirled, anticipating the onslaught of paralysing fear. None came. This felt right. He felt right. Too right to deny or worry about.

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming

His head spun as he felt her hand loop around the back of his neck, playing with the sensitive skin. He shivered, allowing the feeling to race down his spine. He thought back to all the flustered denials of their attraction. Repeatedly insisting that they were ‘just partners’. His lips twitched. They were never ‘just’ anything.

Or the moment of truth in your lies

She moved her hand around and lightly traced his jaw line. She dropped her gaze to her roaming fingers, focusing on the friction between her soft skin and the light stubble coating his chin. He nearly forgot to breath. This had to be a dream. This couldn’t actually be happening. All of the time he had spent wishing for this moment, and here she was, touching him, caressing his skin. Without a trace of fear.

When everything feels like the movies

“I would never leave you,” he whispered.

She paused briefly before breathing, “I know.”

Excitement fluttering in his stomach and pulsing in his throat, he tightened his grip on her waist. She allowed herself to be pulled towards him. Neither moved for a number of seconds. Then, ever so slowly, he dipped his head. He needed to kiss her. Needed to make the fantasy a reality. All of the times he had tortured himself with images of her like this, needing the pain, the only way he could feel close to her.

Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive

He waited until her eyes flickered shut before closing his own. Lips meeting hers, he gave himself over to the experience. A little keening noise of pleasure sounded in the back of her throat. His shoulders relaxed and he held her tighter. Both of her arms moved behind his neck, fingers lazily grazing his collar.

This felt better than he could have ever imagined. Her scent surrounded him, tingling his nerve endings. His assured grasp on her waist was turning her spine to jelly. This was breathtaking.

Ever so slowly, they broke apart. His eyes sought hers, his stomach somersaulting at the happiness he found there. Encouraged, he tipped his head forward to rest his forehead against hers. She leaned against him, sighing contentedly.

“I...I love you.”

A joyful smile spreading infectiously across his face, he moved a hand to tilt her chin up to face him. She shivered slightly but met his gaze, assured and unafraid of her admittance.

“I love you too.”

She smiled, a truly radiant smile that was his undoing and he pulled her lips to his once more. Fingers traced and danced as they embraced, assured in the knowledge that they were loved.

I just want you to know who I am

jerseybones

Posted 16/11/2007 03:46:56 PM

Pure poetry Kiki.

I am a fan of your writing and I could not ask for anything to change in your story as every word, emotion and expression was perfectly crafted.

Could I possibly ask for Ch.2? Please?

otismotis

Posted 16/11/2007 04:22:07 PM

Absolutely beautiful. You capture the emotions so well, brings back memories of my first true love. Do we get another chapter. I hope so.

nane

Posted 16/11/2007 04:51:56 PM

I love that song. Now I go looking for the song and then start to read.... I love the anticipation. And I know the story will be as wonderfull as all your others!

nane

Posted 16/11/2007 06:00:02 PM

Hm, could not find the song so I had to sing it by myself.
Kiki, you have outdone yourself. What was it, less than 100 words surrounded by pure feelings of love! Brilliant work! And I guess there will be at least a part three because all good things come in threes.

fanofbones

Posted 16/11/2007 10:27:45 PM

that was the most romantic and beautiful piece I have ever read....
the anticipation of the first touch...the first kiss...the first look into each others eyes...the first closeness....holy cow woman...
it was smoldering hot with no smut...
now that's hot

fab

Susan1234

Posted 17/11/2007 10:20:18 PM

One big AW!!! This rocked! Love your stuff, kiki. It's just...amazing. And that's an understatement.

SquirtandMilo

Posted 17/11/2007 10:28:08 PM

God Kiki. This is so good.

SquirtandMilo

Posted 17/11/2007 10:28:08 PM

God Kiki. This is so good.

DBAngelfan

Posted 17/11/2007 11:56:33 PM

wow nice!

Bella Loony

Posted 18/11/2007 03:24:29 PM

Oh Kiki,

I'm crying! That was absolutely beautiful!! I am off to read the M one now....AMAZING sweetie!!!

Bella

ashangel45-boothsbaby07

Posted 24/11/2007 11:16:07 PM

i reviewed at ff...but this is so amazing, i had to review here 2....so so beautiful!!!! i LOVE this song, and i love it even more used with them. that song was meant to be for b/b!! every line fit perfectly with the song. again, amazing!!!